2022

What a year it’s been! – And it’s only April!

So far, I’ve experienced 3 breakups: One with a partner that I loved deeply, my best friend since college, and, just today, someone whose friendship wasn’t serving me and vice versa. While I’m still grappling with some of these, the intention for 2022 is trust. I’m trusting that these relationships needed to end for the good.

Like last year, I set out to learn a lesson. What is it that the universe (Source, God, whatever you call it) wants me to learn this go-round? And the word that resonated most with me was trust. And at first, I assumed I was to learn how to put more trust in others. As I continued thinking about trust and what it meant, I found that it wasn’t trusting others that I wanted to cultivate, it was trust in myself; my instinct, my intuition, my voice. I’m learning to better identify and accept when things just feel right; even the hard things, the difficult, painful things.

It’s interesting how trusting yourself can transform you. I now navigate and move through the world differently. Have you ever felt like a force? Abstractly, that’s how it feels. More concretely though, I am more self-assured and grounded. I’m able to come back to my center faster. I assert my opinions and feelings more frequently. I’m more direct, candid, and forthcoming. My discernment is sharpened. I’m less afraid. I’m more hedonistic, audacious, and brave. I am trusting that I am always in the right place at the right time, regardless of how I feel at any given moment. I am trusting my creativity and my fear, and I am using my fear to fuel my creativity. I am moving distractions and things with which I am misaligned. I am in motion. Have you ever felt like an unstoppable force?

After telling all of this to my therapist recently, she mentioned that I’d “leveled up.” I couldn’t agree more.

And it’s only April.